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Balancing Ambition

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I was recently contemplating ambition and the force of nature that compels human beings to push forward or not.  Pushing forward meaning working towards goals and how we choose to move towards these goals.  We live in a culture that celebrates hard work and success.   Our success is often defined by what we own and what title we hold in our chosen career.  Did you attain fame or notoriety? Where do you live, what kind of dwelling do you live in? How hard did you have to work? Are you working now? Just a scant few of the thousands of ways that success can be measured.     

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Ambition is a force of nature.  It moves like a river with an unrelenting force; yet delicately molding and shaping what it flows over. It’s a dance of intricate moves and balancing.   Similar to a professional ballerina who performs a high releve on her toes and holds a graceful arabesque; looking fragile and effortless, but requiring intense strength and complex coordination. It’s a perfect game with all the right moves, the team moving expertly through each of their positions and meeting the goal.  

As we move toward the goal, there are twists and turns and setbacks, but the river still flows and the key is to move with the flow and don’t stop moving.  Let life takes it’s course and you end up in wonderful places.  You pass through dark places too, but it’s all transient; sometimes when the bad part is over, it’s almost as if it were a dream.   

How much is enough and will ambition fade out and diminish as we age? How long are we willing to stay on the treadmill of life or how long will life let us stay there?   As our bodies lose strength and vitality, our minds and spirit grow stronger and balance is maintained. Some say that once you have had the career, the family, that there’s nothing else, but I beg to differ. There is more, so much more.

  

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There is the celebration of life that we wake up to everyday.   If we wake up, we are alive and we choose the day ahead.  Yes, the circumstances may seem bleak, but as long as you are living, things will most likely change, because life is always changing.   And then there is beauty, all around and free.   It make just take a tweaking of your perspective, but it’s there.

Ambition is human and it’s fluid.  We balance ambition carefully to create the perfect equation for success,  whatever that means to us.  It’s different for everyone.  My choice is to flow with my ambition and have faith that I’ll get there. Stay open to all possibilities and opportunities for growth, sometimes even the scary ones.   Change, growing is challenging and as we gain years and experience in life the challenges grow greater and make life exciting and worth living.   So we grow, we change and hopefully keep the balance. For that in it’s self is everything.  

A garden requires patient labor and attention. Plants do not grow merely to satisfy ambitions or to fulfill good intentions. They thrive because someone expended effort on them- 

Liberty Hyde Bailey

The Golden Thread

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My mother related that her mother, (my grandmother),  had a favorite petite homily. This lovely bit of advice was that golden threads connected us to Heaven. A filament so thin and fragile in it’s beauty and meaning, but with unworldly strength unknown to man. A love so great it’s unfathomable.

It was another timeless saying that had passed from generation to generation, perhaps for hundreds or years or maybe she had just picked up the pearl of wisdom in this century during her many travels.  My grandmother was well-travelled for a farm girl from Nebraska. Her mother was sent out to work at eleven years of age and then married a farm hand without a farm, so she continued to work on other people’s farms and started her family while doing so.  So my grandmother’s traveling began at her birth and as soon as her mother had recovered from childbirth and well enough to move to the next farm.  Eventually they moved into town and her father just moved from farm to farm and sent his income home. My great grandmother had to become self-reliant, especially when the depression hit. She brought in income by sewing, doing laundry, up cycling (before it was popular), taking in boarders, setting up her own beauty shop and working as a nanny. As my grandmother grew up, she followed in her independent mother’s footsteps. She went to college and she became a career woman. She worked as a book keeper for a well-known insurance company based out of the midwest.

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For fun she went to dances, sang in a choir, went on a lot of dates and travelled the United States performing on a drill team sponsored by her employer. She was also an accomplished pianist and was offered a tour to Europe, but for reasons buried and left undiscovered, she did not take up this amazing opportunity and decided to never play the piano again. Throughout all of this and for the rest of her life, she kept a prayer book at her bedside and read it on a regular basis.

This belief that there is a beautiful golden thread tethering us to heaven  describes the power of faith and the miracles that occur in our world everyday. Miracles that are inexplicable and affirm  that there is a greater power at work here. A power that’s a gift.

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When I was child, I was named by a rabbi, attended Saturday school, learned Hebrew and my name was installed on the Tree of Life. Eventually,  Life changed and my spiritual journey began.   I attended many houses of worship and found something valuable in each one.

With experience, I  let what I had learned as a child go, because with knowledge comes a new path.  

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There are many different religions in the world; up to 4200, per Google.  Christianity is the most popular, followed by Muslim, Hindu, Buddhist and then Shintoism. New age thinking has emerged and the concept that we are  spiritual beings more than anything else.  Spirituality doesn’t require structure to exist. 

My grandmother has been gone for many years now, but I keep her homily  close to my heart. It’s a small beautiful idea, but it’s everything too.

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Father Time and Flea Medicine

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While I was getting ready to apply my pet’s monthly dose of flea medicine the other day; I noticed a date that I had added in black sharpie ink. What stood out about the date was that it wasn’t the previous month like it should have been. Because you are supposed to apply the medicine once a month and two months had passed since I recorded the date. And I realized that I had been swept up in living, filling each day and night to the brim. And as I got busier and busier, time passed and it passed unnoticed. I realized that my resolve to relish each moment of precious life was slipping.

This one little very important chore that brought relief and comfort to my beloved pets, had been passed over without a thought; just as time had passed too. How many days had I missed without watching the sunrise which was one the most beautiful sights in the world? How many days had passed without thinking of how thankful I was for the blessings I had received?

I realized that this applied to so many things in life. Especially in our current times. We have so much information and so much to do. This life is so entertaining and as we enjoy all the offerings, time swiftly passes. Hopefully we immerse ourselves in each moment and that in the end we’re happy with our journey. That we can say we are ok with the way it went and that we are satisfied with the things that we took the time to love and pay attention too.