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Made With Love

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Maison Clairvoy 

One of the greatest gifts I ever received were my dance shoes from Maison Clairvoy. The shoes themselves were not gifts and the cost was deducted from my salary that I earned as a cabaret dancer. The gift was the opportunity to have dance shoes made by hand with extreme precision and skill to fit my foot exactly and provide a strong base to dance from. A fit that was meant to cradle the foot in comfort while withstanding and supporting an enormous amount of torque and pressure created by human muscles and mass to perform athletic movement.  Dance shoes created by one of the greatest artisan workshops in the history of the world. I was lucky enough to have two pairs. One for the Can Can and one for the more elegant numbers with feathers and rhinestones. 

When I arrived in Paris, to work exclusively for a well-known dance troupe,  one of the first things my dance director instructed me to do,  was to go to a local atelier and have my dance shoes fitted. We were rehearsing in an underground theatre.  It was a dark, cavern of a space, dank and musty. An old wooden stage took up the center of the room and was surrounded by low red velvet settees for the audience. Crystal chandeliers strategically place to capture light and reflect sparkling drops of shimmer and illumination throughout the room. One early evening, directly as rehearsal ended, our manager, walked towards me. He was a man of little words. He looked like he had stepped out of a 1940’s old Hollywood film, dressed in neatly pressed slacks and clean, crisp shirt.  An ever-present cigarette dangling from his fingertips. Smoke drifting up in misty curly cues into the blackness of the low ceiling. I quickly took a deep breath and inhaled the mysterious smoke. I wanted to take in everything I could about Paris.  Everyone smoked in the city and I wanted to understand why. I knew I had to try it- to know what the Parisiennes knew. To  find out why they loved smoking so much. The smoke was a mixture pure, unadulterated tobacco and somehow, men’s cologne. 

“Hello Darling, you will need dance shoes, here’s the address and give them this bill.”

“Do you think you can find it?” “Your dance captain will give you the time, place, name and address of the shoe maker.”

He handed me two small printed sheets of paper. Once I had the address, I found my way via Metro and my small tourist map of Paris that I keep with me at all times. The map listed the streets and arrondissements and favorite things to see and do in Paris.  Maison Clairvoy was not too far from where I was staying in Pigalle, The Red Light district.  Many of the touring dancers were booked into an auberge, well known in the dance world, in the heart of the entertainment district. The first  Parisienne cabaret, The Moulin Rouge, had come to life and still existed in this very location. It’s Red Windmill nestled among business offices, laundries, boulangeries and patisseries. Veg stands and charcuterie specialists.  Working Parisiennes from all walks of life moved carefully among the narrow sidewalks making sure to miss the dog poo that was everywhere.  The odors that rose up from the sidewalk were heady and odoriferous concoction of dog urine and feces, butchered meat, rotting veg, baking bread and perfume.  It smelled awful but I grew to love it and now decades later,  I can still smell it, just thinking of it.  Beautiful tall dazzling workers hung about the  corners of the Rue, 24 hours a days, in dresses, miniskirts and platforms.  Their faces blown up with injectable silicone and made up for any excitement that came their way. Wary and defensive towards the young girls they were attempting to emulate. But kind and helpful if you were really were in distress.  

I don’t know how I found myself navigating through a part of the world where I didn’t speak the language and it was completely foreign to me. As I remember, I was practical about it and I wanted to dance, so I figured it out. It wasn’t too difficult to understand the language or read it.  The French used the same alphabet as the English.  I found the store front with dance shoes in the window. There was a door next to it that led up a flight of old stairs.  I climbed up the stairs and was ushered into a workspace where cubbyholes stuffed with dance shoes of every kind lined the walls. A wave of warm air infused with the perfume of soft, fine leather came towards me and enveloped me.  An older gentleman greeted me. He was dressed in courdoroys and a pullover. He called his assistant over. A youngish, impossibly thin, chic woman dressed in black stovepipe slacks and a white button down work shirt.  He gave her instructions in French and motioned for me to follow her. She smiled and led me to a bench. I was quickly seated and she measured my foot from all angles and then had me try on samples of an open toed sandal with heels and and a closed toe tap shoe.  When I touched the shoes the softness of the leather was like butter and shone as a if someone had massaged the strong leather for hours to attain the beautiful sheen. The heels of each pair were solid and strong and anchored in a way that would last through years of punishment as they carried me across stages in Africa,  Europe and Scandinavia and then back home to United States.  I glanced around the workshop and saw many types of shoes for many types of dancers.  The fitting was over quickly and  I was on my way again and left the workshop.  I left the shop with a feeling of privilege to have experienced something so rare and romantic.  Knowing that I had officially entered the world of dance. The world of the Ballet Russe, The Moulin Rouge, The Lido.  I had been to the source.  Two weeks later my shoes arrived. I slipped my feet into my very one handmade dance shoes and they fit perfectly. They cradled my feet in the all the right places and felt like a solid hug from someone who loves you very much.   And then we were on our way to start our tour. Those shoes became an extension of my body and allowed me to jump, twirl, kick and land with force.  Once I had to have the straps replaced, but otherwise they withstood years of aggressive use.  A testimony to the enduring and exquisite craftsmanship of Maison Clairvoy. 

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Where Life Takes You

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The full moon is in Aquarius tonight. I look out my window and see a shimmering light illuminating the earth. The trees are reflecting moon beams and the street is sparkling and silver. I know that I’m supposed to be out in it, soaking in the moon beams, refreshing my aura.  

I figure I can lay in bed and open the blinds and let the rays hit me while I rest.  It goes with the other instructions I received from my favorite astrology blog that reported it was time to spoil and pamper myself. So, ok, I will, I will lay here, luxuriate and soak in the glittering shimmering moonbeams that are glorifying the night sky.  

 

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I can feel the magic energy in the air.  The world feels alive with possibilities tonight; as if anything  could happen.  It’s a happy night, if you can just tune in to it.  Let go, breathe, drink some tea, take a lotus pose and accept. And there you are, where life is taking you and it’s an amazing ride filled with beauty and wonder. Let the bliss wash over you.  I think of other magic full moons and illuminated landscapes.  Tall redwoods towering above the canopy of Sierra pines. Majestic and lived through thousands of full moons. Beaches with the full moon reflected in the waves as the gently roll in at low tide. 

Those places have stayed in my heart and are easily conjured up for full moon reveries. Especially now, getting ready to hit the road again and travel to the land of Kings and Castles, Europe. 

What is it about a European vacation that sets the imagination on fire and makes your heart beat hard-very hard?  I think it’s stepping back to one of the cradles of civilization.  This cradle being Paris, in particular. Paris is ancient. It’s underground filled with hieroglyphics and medieval remains(The Catacombs). Despite her age, she is eternally youthful, the city of romance, art, beauty and design.   The spirits of great artists linger over cafes and reconvene as the new generation appears. 

But it’s not just a vacation, it’s a reunion.  Having been fortunate enough to be a part of the Bluebell Dancers, artists who danced across the stages of the world in the glory days of their youth, we will reconvene soon in The City Of Lights, Paris.   We had the world at our feet because of our youth and talent and we were blessed to have this time of our lives in Paris. It was magic and we are all coming to relive and recreate that magical time in our lives for two very special days.   

So, join us,  Come on the trip!  Come sip some tea in the great tea houses of Paris and share the stories of showgirls of an era gone by. 

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Parisienne Breakfast, natural and healthy

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Later in life and once I had enough resources, I made it my mission to recreate a breakfast that defined my initiation into the ways of the world, literally. When I was 20, I moved to Europe and my first stop was Paris. After a very long transatlantic flight and taxi to the our hotel located on the border of  the red light district, I would be ushered into the breakfast room that changed my life and beliefs about the world completely. That first European breakfast would be a vivid memory for the rest of my life.




The breakfast room was a small bright room with huge old windows hung with lace curtains. The morning light of the gray Parisian morning filtered through the backwards lettering that spelled Hotel Des Arts. The tables were old, with linoleum tops, the table legs resting on a painted floor. The room was old, vintage, but one of the cleanest rooms I’d been in.   The aroma of fresh robust coffee filled the air with underlying tones of fresh bread and steamed milk. I felt incredibly fatigued by jet lag and hungry from lack of a real meal for about 24 hours. A waitress came to the table and asked for my drink order in French. After I gave her my order, a basket containing a fresh baguette and croissants were placed on the table with fresh butter and a pot of strawberry preserves. Small containers of plain white yogurt were placed on the table and then a pot of steamed milk and a silver teapot filled with steaming coffee. It didn’t seem like much compared to the choices I had at home, but once I partook of the this Parisian repast, I found it was delicious and satisfying in a wonderful way. It was simple, but completely gratifying. I was  full and the fatigue was slipping away. The flavors of coffee, hot milk and patisserie with fresh butter and jam blended perfectly. Later, I found out that this was the way the French lived. Creating their own unique blends of delicious and natural foods from ancient recipes and traditions. Cuisine that satisfied the soul.

That started a train of thought that would not leave me for the rest of my life. I was determined to recreate that first Parisian breakfast. Once I returned home, I would seek out bakeries in grocery stores, restaurants and freestanding establishments  to find the perfect croissant and baguette. Thankfully about 20 years into my search, French culture hit the US with the opening of a famous coffee chain based out of Seattle and specialty grocery store that went national. The grocery delivered the patisserie, pain au chocolate, in particular, via the frozen food section. I could buy the frozen treat and have it baked and ready by the next morning. Of course, it was nothing compared to the real thing found only in the morning in Paris, but it was amazing how after eight hours of rising through the midnight hours that buttery, flaky crusts actually came out my Southern California  oven. It seemed there were a thousand layers of delicious buttery  dough that melted in my mouth. The last layer, a thick ribbon of dark chocolate lay slightly melted but holding it’s form. The perfect ending to the delicious pastry.




For the coffee, the new coffee chain opened, bringing espresso to the United States. So finally I had most of my ingredients for that mystical French breakfast that plagued my memories and created a longing that went on for years. The last ingredient was a plain, unbelievably creamy and tangy French yogurt. I found that most of the plain yogurts here were Greek and too thick. The European style yogurts didn’t really capture the simple and pure style of those first yogurts. I tried Kefir, goat yogurt, you name it, I tried the gamut.

Then finally and unknowingly, the yogurt that I had dreamed of for 30 years was in my fridge and I had no idea it was there. I knew I had just bought yogurt, but I didn’t  think it would be ‘the one’. I was having a lazy day and didn’t feel like putting my glasses on at the grocery store. I asked the young clerk if he saw a plain cup-sized yogurt in the case. He found me one and said , “this is the only one that we have left, it’s our store brand and I’m not too sure you’ll like it. It’s low fat too, so I’m not sure you want this. ” I really wanted a plain yogurt in a cup, so I took  a couple of cups from him and stored them in the fridge without a thought when I got home. The next day, I sat down to breakfast and opened a cup of that very American, no frills plain cup of low-fat yogurt. I  looked into the cup and immediately felt a twinge of nostalgia and faint feeling of recognition. This yogurt appeared runny, but creamy and it clung thickly to the sides of the cup. An aroma similar to a dairy milking room wafted up from the cup. Memories of the Parisian breakfast room began to appear. I dipped my spoon and tasted the French imposter. The yogurt slid over my tongue with satin creaminess and tanginess that I hadn’t tasted for 30 years! It was ridiculous the joy that I felt over that generic yogurt. It was one of those funny little jokes that life  will play on us every once in awhile. Searching everywhere in vain for something that was right under my nose.   Maybe, over the years, I just didn’t recognize that taste from that long ago, but for some reason, my mind wanted to believe it and that made me really happy. I decided to go with it and the wonder of discovering the missing link I needed to recreate that life changing experience from years ago.




So that’s how I managed to recapture that wonderful first morning in Paris. The quest is over and the idea no longer plagues me. I didn’t have to leave that wonderful memory behind and now every morning I can have a little bit of Paris.